sometimes i do crazy things and watch a movie around 10pm even though I agreed to go to early morning prayer the next day (meaning I have to wake up at 5am). But I had this sudden urge to watch it. And I learned some very profound things.. about marriage, faithfulness, and trust. I'm not going to go into detail b/c i really must be going to bed. But whether or not the story was dramatized, the fact that his wife stayed with him the entire time, is what makes this movie beautiful.

on a different subject, today's message @ LG was so good. So applicable and so true! racial reconciliation. and not just racially, but socially, and any other --ally you can think of. Just the other day I was making fun of someone and laughing along because of the way he acts when he gets nervous. WOW. is that how Christians evangelize to their friends? certainly not. why do i think i'm superior to others? it's not just what I say and do, but even what I think.

"...whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things"
Philippians 4:8

I feel like I've definitely matured from where I was in high school, but the growing just doesn't stop. And you'd think that I'd get sick of never attaining perfection (given my propensity to strive for it). But nuh-uh. I'm glad that I am improving and working on mistakes and realizing that only by the grace of God can I be transformed and have a renewed heart and mind and soul. It's AMAZING what God does for me. How he changes me. And how he rescues me.

Must reeeally go to bed now. busybusy weekend.

sat: early morning prayer; work 9-1pm; shopping; study foreverrrrrrrrrrr; ksa rehearsal
sun: church; study foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrr; ksa show

God, I need YOUR strength ! I know I didn't sleep early tonight but all the more reason to need YOU MORE !