i'm not going to korea.. for the second time this year.
this is worse than those times in high school when every summer my parents said i'd go and then suddenly change their minds.

this is much worse.

yesterday, i changed the itinerary for my brother because he's unable to go this winter break. that was successful and an email was sent to daddy to confirm. but he calls today around 4am saying that my itinerary was also changed. WHAT?! then i looked closer. and my brother and i were under the same confirmation number and i guess any changes are made as a package. so now we're rescheduled to leave may19th, 2oo9.

my question is.. why God? seriously?
you already prevented me from going once during the summer.. why now? this time, it wasn't even my fault! last time, yea i gave my passport to teachoverseas.org and i couldn't get it back. i understand. but this time i didn't do anything explicitly wrong. my family in korea are disappointed for the second time all wondering the same thing. why God? is it because you want me to prepare for the winter retreat i'm going to serve at? is it because you want me to stay at home and get to know the international students? is it because you want me to spend more time with my mom and my brother? it's probably all of the above and then some, right? =)

in the end.. i can't be mad because i know that this is all in His hands. i wish i could be frustrated at the lady i talked to yesterday about making changes because she could've said, "well hey there, your itinerary is also going to be changed. bet you don't want that since you never mentioned it"... but o well.


c'est la vie.