...is way too much work. i dunno how the rest of the female population does it. spending over 3 hours at the mall buying stuff. i like it when i have an idea of what i want and i go there and i buy it and get the heck out of there. shopping used to be so easy for me. but today... it was the longest, most agonizing 3 hours of my life. i passed out after dinner ! around 8pm ! who does that b/c of shopping ?!

i was looking for a dress/outfit for KSA night. i did have a fall back plan. go w/ my polka dot dress i wore for the Case in Point concert. which i wanna avoid b/c i don't like wearing the same things especially for performances. so i went to the mall with a couple ideas in mind. went to almost every single store. tried on a bunch of different things. fell into "sticker shock". and ended up in the same place that we started from : dillard's. they had a bunch of dresses.. but they were either too flashy or too conservative; too short or too long; too big or too small.. it's so hard to find a dress for me ! WHY. but anyway. so i ended up buying a white smock and jewelry. later, we went to target and i bought some shoes. buuuut after trying it on.. it looks cute. but not performance-worthy. sooo i'm gonna hafta fall back on my polka dress. which is super cute. but i'm gonna hafta find a different top. soo now i'm in search of that. =)

the month of feb. is so busy ! that's why i haven't been updating like crazy.

but back to shopping. i caught myself thinking verrrry materialistic thoughts. i wished that i made $$ of my own so i could buy those shoes. which i probably, in reality, would only wear about a grand total of two times. i also wanted to buy all these jeans, when i already have too many. i wanted to buy like all the earrings i could even though i don't wear all the ones i have now. i was getting so greedy the more i shopped ! it's so bad for me ! i dunno how the rest of you do it. i'm gonna go back to my old know-what-you-wanna-buy-and-buy-it mode. that's the only way it works for me. =) i dunno when i got so into my looks. who am i trying to impress? hahaha i have nooooo clue.

i do have an obsession with shoes. not necessarily buying expensive shoes... but just having lots of shoes. i dunno why ! what's my problem ?! i don't think i've gotten to the point where i need to go into rehab. buuuut still. it's gonna become a problem.

anyway. i'm out. i gotta sleep for church tomorrow ! x)
Clarke