Dec. 12 - math223
Dec. 14 - evolution (i dunno if i still take the final even though i'm pass/failing it. i think i still do)
Dec. 18th - physical chemistry

thank you kelvin smith library for being open 24hours a day, 7 days a week. =) i will be camping out there. don't look for me in my room. this is my home for the next 2 weeks.

going home on the 19th. i think some time in the morning. anyone gimme a ride? x) thanksss.

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Ecclesiastes 11:5

As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot unerstand the work of God, the Maker of all things.

who cares if i fail all of 'em. who knows, i might end up getting C's in my classes. maybe i won't, maybe i will. but whatever happens.. God's in control of everything. i gotta trust Him b/c i have no control over my life. knowing that He's in control gives me peace.. sometimes. ~,^ seems foolish.. but that's what you gotta be sometimes. foolish. i am foolish. crazy and foolish. taking risks left and right. actually, i'm not much of a risk-taker. i'm too careful.

but i don't wanna be. why live life so carefully and in a box.

to laugh is to risk appearing the fool; to weep is to risk being called sentimental
to reach out to another is to risk involvement; to expose feelings is to risk showing your true self
to place ideas and your dreams before the crowd is to risk being called naĭve
to love is to risk not being loved in return; to live is to risk dying
to hope is to risk despair; to try is to risk failure
but risk must be taken, because the greatest risk of life is to risk nothing

the person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing, and becomes nothing

he may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, or love
chained by his attitude, he is a slave; he has fortified his freedom
only the person who risks is truly free
--janet rand

i don't wanna be stupid, but i wanna be foolish knowing that God's got my back every step of the way. =) what have i got to lose, right? do it all for Him. in the end, He gets what He's been planning all along. haha. sometimes, i just wanna sit and be like, "alright God. do what You want." but it's not like that at all. b/c if i'm like that.. completely lazy, then how do i know what God wants to do w/ me until i start doing something, and He closes doors? or opens new opportunities? i'll never know until i pray about it, act upon it, and seek his wisdom. don't be a veggie. ^ ^ i'm gonna be a risk-taker. that's something different i'm gonna this new semester. don't be scared to talk to this person. don't be scared to give that person a hug. to pray for this friend. to call someone up you haven't spoken w/ in over a year. to go on the scariest roller coaster everrrr. to go really fast on the highway. haha. to act silly, to laugh hilariously, to be the first to start dancing on the dance floor, to wear something outrageously not matching... i dunno. i'm just being random w/ these examples. but you get the idea.

who thinks i'm too careful? not spontaneous enough? hahaha.. y'all raised your hands, i know. =) it's okay.

in other news : tomorrow i'm being evaluated to be a tour guide. and it's gonna be CRAP weather tomorrow. crapcrapcrap. ssoo i hope i don't slip & fall. or worse, fail this evaluation. >,<

that's all. study hard, kids. don't stress too hard. He's got it under control.