MiSURA

In response to the post right before this one, here are my justifications.

"you" could be the most important word in the phrase because...
"i love _____". fill in the blank. we can easily insert music, movies, dancing, singing, books, monet, shakespeare, computers, my bed, sleep, animals, etcetc. but to actually say it to someone and mean it.. that's truly another thing. to insert "you" gives that person joy because s/he knows that s/he is loved. it gives a person worth.

"love" could be the most important word in the phrase because...
i believe the love that is exemplified in the bible. whether it's in I Corinthians 13:4-8 or God's love through Jesus Christ. Whichever and however it was demonstrated, when someone says "i love you" s/he better have a sound mind about the meaning of love. it's not some infatuation or obsession or idolatry. so when someone says that s/he really means what s/he says. those three words shouldn't be spit out like other phrases like, "wats up" and "how you doing?". it has a precious yet powerful meaning.

but to me.. "i" is the most important word because...
when i say it, i admit that i'm capable of love. we're all selfish. we all wanna be loved. we gravitate towards the people who are kind to us and benefit us. why would you call someone who never calls you back? why buy someone food who can never pay you back? why spend time with a person who never makes time for you? it's not forcing myself. but being able to put their needs before mine. when i can finally admit that my life is sometimes not that important, i can put my thoughts and cares on theirs. therefore i am admitting that despite my sinful and selfish nature, i can put others before me. it's not only a declaration of love towards that person, but it's a reminder that just as Jesus loved me, i can love others. =)

ssooo that's my thoughts. ^ ^

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Virginia Tech.
All week this has been on the minds of all across the U.S. and especially college students. yesterday in small group we shared our discomforts and even thanks due to vT. what did i share? i shared about how i know lonely, depressed people like Cho. i wonder how many people tried to approach him. i'm sure a lot of people did try. what about when he first came to the states? how much he must've been taunted and made fun of. b/c that's what happened to me. i went to rich schools where kids drove real nice cars and parents could afford anything in the town. but even though not many people really helped me out, i learned how to depend on Jesus. maybe that's the difference between Cho and i. even in high school, there was one kid in particular who looked like was having a tough time. this kid had trisomy21. he was my year in high school. when he first came, all the other girls and guys were freaked out. he didn't look normal and he didn't speak very clearly either. he was loud and obnoxious during praise and bothered people around him. he smiled at awkward moments and scared off the other girls. but there was one kid. a year younger than me. he always sat next to the kid and even tho he was loud during praise, he wasn't ever bothered. he still kept on praising like he normally would. he passed up the opportunity to be with his friends to be with this kid and made him laugh. at the end of senior year, the kid w/ trisomy21 mentioned how this one guy in high school helped change his life. he knew that he wasn't the smartest, coolest, or most handsome. but the guy didn't care. he sat next to him anyway. he joked around as if they were best friends. he learned how to be happy and take joy in the little things of life. he realized that the world isn't as bad as he made it seem.

i wonder if someone helped Cho in this way. or even tried at least. i know i shouldn't argue that "maybe things would've been different" because God does have a reason for everything. but watching the disturbing video about his message to the world.. gives me the chills.

keep all the families in your prayers.
especailly Cho's family. i can only imagine the agony they must be in. what shame they feel. and how badly they just wanna escape.

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