i just wrote a super long post about how many problems i have and how worried i am.
but forget it. not b/c i'm being passive or ignorant or lazy. but because i realize that this world is bigger and that our God is bigger and that my problems will be allll taken care of.

listen to this song. chris tomlin - the way that i was made.


caught in the half-light, i'm caught alone
waking up to the sunrise and the radio
feels like i'm tied up, what's holding me?
just praying today will be the day i go free

***i want to live like there's no tomorrow
i wanna dance like no one's around
i wanna sing like nobody's listening
before i lay my body down
i want to give like i have plenty
i want to love like i'm not afraid
i want to be the (wo)man i was meant to be
i want to be the way i was made

made in Your likeness, made with Your hands
made to discover who You are and who I am
all i've forgotten help me to find
all that You've promised let it be in my life

***

it's like all those typical quotes... but chris tomlin takes it one step further. it's not just about living and loving radically, it's about living because you were made in a specific way and you should rejoice and celebrate in that ! when i heard this in oppa's car.. at first i was like, how cheesy. haha. but after reading the lyrics again and again.. i wanna be able to dance and let go.

so whatever problems, worries you have. sure, write 'em down. but then let 'em go. God will take care of them. so many of us take our crap to God.. talk about it.. worry about it.. pray about it.. and then bring it back with us. and we wonder why we still worry about this stuff. that's b/c we never really gave it up to God.

and also, rejoice in who you are.
today, my new mentor and her mother both commented on how cute my personality was and how animated i was when i spoke. how my speaking and singing voice was really soothing and calming but at the same time fun to listen to. i never heard someone say that my speaking voice was all that great. and my mentor's youngest child, greta, is just the most beautiful child in the world. i think seeing her smile and laugh just makes my day. =) i was afraid of
failing last night @ the senior banquet b/c i was in charge of everything pretty much. but it really wasn't me who was in charge. i didn't let God take control of it. but no matter how much of a control freak, perfectionist, cute, clumsy i am. i've been made by God. touched by His own very hands. and what's greater than that?

that's all for this weekend.
study hard for finals. =)