This is a semi-serious post. so if you're semi-serious about me, then pay attention ! haha! The following is the serious part. put on your serious face.



"23Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed
him. 24Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the
waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. 25The disciples
went and woke him, saying, "Lord, save us! We're going to
drown!"
26 He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so
afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was
completely calm.
27 The men were amazed and asked, "What kind of man
is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!"

Matthew 8:23-27


The past few days have been kinda crappy. Lots of work like no other . Meetings after another. Rehearsal scheduled at odd times because none of our schedules seem to come together. Labs, research, exams, just all seemed to be cramped in this week. i ignored most of my phone calls. so if you called... and left a message and i didn't call you back.. this is why. i swear, i was in lab on thurs. and when i got out i had 8 voice messages to respond to. how crazy is that. that's never happened before. and most of them were just like, "hey, what's up" sort of messages. i felt good that people were calling and checking up on me. but i felt so horrible b/c i couldn't call all of 'em back. anyway! i've been exhausting every bit of energy i have. i haven't been eating exactly right, either. sleeping past 3am is no good. i'm not usually like this so my body's like, "STOP IT ! i can't take it anymore !" But these are all storms. in the end, whenever that may be, it will all work out. why? b/c Jesus is the captain of my ship. when trouble comes around, He will be the one i seek. someone asked me what i do when i get angry or anxious. you might as well add sad, depressed, disappointed, upset, humiliated, etc on the list, too. what do you do when things go wrong? i listed off the usual.. sit @ the piano, blast music and drive down the highway, dance my butt off, or just lay on my bed and think about what happened. but more often.. i find myself telling God what's going on. duh, he already knows. but me telling him makes me feel better. knowing that he's listening even though he's omniscient. i remember the sermon about "who is the captain in your life?". I remember crying a lot after the sermon... b/c as the semi-control freak i am... i don't like someone else making decisions for me. but going through college... nothing is in my control. only God knows what's best for me. i don't. my parents don't. my friends don't. not even my advisor. only HIM. so no matter what storms you're going through.......... He will take care of them. the question is : will you let Him?


now that that part's overrr... let's talk about the not-quite-as-serious part. =) Today was the pchem exam. Yes. not exactly the most pleasant thing in the world. after craziness w/ smallville, grey's anatomy, olympics in China, .. i finally got crackin` around 11pm. kekeke. and when i took my breaks... i took pics. what else. xP
here it is. the book that will ruin me.


sometimes i fall asleep. like i did during the exam. HAHAHAHA. mann.. i went thru the exam.. filling in all the questions i knew how to do. and then i fell asleep for some DUMB reason. then when i woke up i had 20 minutes left. WHAT THE HECK. so i quickly finished the rest. =) man, time flies .. er when you're sleeping.
i'm gonna stab my book. w/ my sharpie. dangerous. watch out.

Yea. hahahaha. don't worry. the exam was pretty easy. Although that does not guarantee an A... it does show that i studied well? haha, watever.

Finally.. the REAL, obvious calm after the storm came when I saw the clear sky. So clear that my eyes hurt. ever have that happen? it's so weird. i bet the people who were walking on the opposite side of the sidewalk thought i was a lunatic b/c i was staring up @ the sky while i was walking.. smiling the biggest smile ever. i probably looked like a dork. x) ㅋㅋㅋ. but i just couldn't stop smiling. even tho i slept 4hrs, my eyes blood red, and my legs feeling totally helpless and like jelly.... the sky made all the difference. i wish i could show you what i saw. i wish i could paint it for you. i wish i had a large vocabulary so i could paint in words.

but i can't. so let's go on.

i'm so angry that i missed the koinonia praise night tonight !!!!! >____<;; BUUUUT i got to meet a lot of the brothers (and by that i'm also including sisters) in AXE (alpha chi sigma - professional chemistry frat) and they're all really cool. =) funny. hahahh definitely funny. and it's nice having someone that i know already there. even my fellow pledges are neat. =) too bad most of them live on southside and the freshmen i hardly see... but it's still cool. i think being in a prof. chemistry is pretty freakin' awesome. i met someone today who's in four diff. fraternities........ O_O and they all serve a diff. purpose. like engineering, chemistry, a social one, etc. mannn ! imagine how many meetings, community services, everything he has to do !

i'm still busy like no other. so if i don't pick up your phone calls... i am so sorry. and i know busyness is not an excuse. T___T;; 그냥 미안해..

i will soon be raking in the $$. a whopping $20 a week. how hot is that.

alright that's enough of this. ISA (indian student association) cultural dinner/show tomorrow !!! i'm excited b/c everyone talks about this show. i've always liked the dancing & music. and i like the food. =D mm mm in my tumm tumm.

take care over the weekend !

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