Creme Brulee is like... prayer. Haha. But really. (It's probably the lamest analogy ever.. but that's what happened to me tonight. Hey, gotta take what you got.) This is what a creme brulee is. It's me. It's you. It's whoever is on their knees ready to pray. On the outside you're pretty. Decorated w/ shaved chocolate and burnt sugar, adorned w/ mint leaves, accessorized w/ raspberries. Man, you even smell good. But underneath that thin, fragile skin lies a heart that is soft, open, and ready to receive. No matter how hard it is, the power of prayer is greater than the hardest of hearts. And once it's cracked... the rest of it crumbles, too. That's what it is like to be broken.

Today's prayer experience wasn't like past experiences. I wasn't on my knees wailing my eyes out. I wasn't shouting @ the top of my lungs for God to change the world. I wasn't bawling and babbling incoherently that even i couldn't undersatnd myself. There wasn't loud music to cover up the loud noises, either. I wasn't beating the ground b/c I was frustrated. And I definitely wasn't repenting of anything. I was just spending time w/ God.. w/ others.

"...pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge." --Psalm 62:8

The speaker read through Psalm 62.. and this part struck me the hardest. This is a reminder of an earlier post about how Jesus calms the storms in our lives. We seek out shelter when we're stuck in the rain. We seek food when our stomachs are grumbling and caving in. We want to go crazy shopping for clothes b/c the new school year is starting. But why don't I go to God when my heart aches? When I heard this verse, I felt like God just broke the hard, yet fragile outer skin of me. And broke into my heart. He let me know that He's holding me. That He's got my hand. I was broken tonight. But not the typical picture you're thinking. It was a good night. I think I even wrote a song while I was praying. I dunno if that's normal.

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Here's some pics of the creme brulee thanks to Rachel & 강우오빠.







homecoming tomorrow. i have a hot date.

Take care ~~ ^ ^ Tomorrow's a lonnnng day.

It's cold.