MiSURA

to consider someone as a "potential" without actually liking him?

hahaha. y'all are probably way too confused. and i just said y'all. >___>;; something is polluting my brian & lips. i blame it on.. you. yes. you. anyway. is it possible? that's wat i've been thinking for.. quite a while, now. i don't have romantic thoughts about him. i don't fantasize about how we met and how our wedding day is gonna be. haha. that's for guys that are totally outta my league like.. 권상우. ohman. keke. but i dunno. just wanted to throw that question out there.



in other news : it's snowing ! a lot ! and i love love love love love it.
sure, it's freezing, but who cares?! all the more reason to cozy up w/ your friends or that special someone. ~,^ i love winter clothes, too. getting to bundle up w/ the scarf, mittens, hoodies, coats, boots, knee length socks, leggings, sweaters, earmuffs, headbands, anything goes ! put 'em ALL on. and it's okay. ^ ^ LAYER TO THE MAX. my hair's super long, now, too. it's awesome. ^ ^

finals are just around the corner. here we go.

home is so close. and by that, i mean my bed. HARHAR. just keeding. i meant my family, and my close ones. =)

lemee get serious again.

i feel.. like when i go home i'm in a cage. not b/c of my parents or anything. but b/c of other people. maybe i'm being too self-conscious. but i feel like i need to act different. here @ case, i'm totally myself. sure i need to be a bit more extroverted than usual so that we can lure the freshmen in.. muhehhee but i feel like i can be silly. like today in badminton, the only people i know in that class are tim & clara. besides them.. i dunno anyone else. that's at least 20 people. now the normal bokeumee wouldn't make kung fu noises and act like a monkey. but i have done that in the past in classes. and today my pants were really thick and making me hot, so i rolled 'em up my leg and i looked ridiculous. like i had tire wheels stuck in my legs. but i really didn't care. when i walk to class i used to sing along w/ my iriver. but now that it's acting retarded i don't do that. but i still hum along to my own tune. i bet when i go up in the elevator to my floor people hear me singing. kaka. when i'm @ koinonia, i don't hafta be afraid to tell my fellow christian brothers & sisters what i'm struggling w/. of course i need to use discretion when it comes to guys & girls, but i know that they'll accept me no matter what i've done. w/ my suitemates, we're real. r e a l. but i don't feel like that when i'm @ home. why is that? i've known these people for 5years. ohwait. stop. do i really know 'em? guess not. there. problem solved. i never got to know them in the first place. and i supposed that's my fault, right? =( yeea. haha, so here i am complaining about how i don't feel like i'm @ home @ home.. and it's my fault all along. haha. hope you didnt read all that. if you did.. suckers. xP anyway. the other quesiton now is.. how do i deal w/ this. i really shoudln't care about how i've changed.. or maybe i haven't changed and case just exposed something hidden w/in me. as much as i don't wanna shelter this side of me.. i have this pang in my heart that says that i need to. b/c it didn't help me fit in in the first place. i never felt welcome. but it's my fault, definitely. i was never good @ keeping in touch. i always needed work in that area. man, i need help loving others. ssssssssssssooo selfish. >_>;; just like i say i love love love snow.. i can say that i love love love people, too, right? =)

i dunno how long this post will be up. or at least the second half. we'll see. ^ ^